it's always this kind of time that i write. it's 1:20AM. SU09: took summer courses. i will not hesitate to say that course load was way too heavy for my liking. at the same time, if i had another chance to choose whether or not to pick the same courses, i would do so without hesitation, just flipping the order of two of my courses. it's this summer that i have formally changed. of course, i'm always changing and i've always been. * * * four years ago, a series of changes and adjustments had to be made in my life. i made some decisions that were not the wisest. a year and a half ago, i fully realized the results of those decisions. i cried. at this time last year, i vowed to do things differently. all through last year, i struggled to keep up with myself, through expected and unexpected adjustments. this summer, i vowed to be strong. clearly, no matter the cost, i would win. WIN i finally did. i'm no longer so angry. i still cry sometimes, when i think of the past. but today i finally realized that i can stand up and be free to pursue my dreams. | 
